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Posted by diane tavai {205.245.86.4} on November 04, 2002 at 14:52:38:

I QUESTION THE WORLD OF WHAT THEY THINK? GUESS WHAT? IT DOESTN'T MATTER. THANKS TO ALL OF THOSE WHO REPLIED TO THIS MATTER. WE SAMOANS HAVE COME A LONG WAY TO UNDERSTANDING ISSUES THAT WE COME FACE WITH IN THIS WORLD. YEAH, THE FAASAMOA IN ME AND THE BELIEF IN DOING THE RIGHT THING AND NOT DISGRACE YOU FAMILY IN ANY WAY CAN BE VERY SUICIDAL. I MARRIED A MEAULI WHICH WAS SUCH A DISGRACE TO SOME PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY. AND I ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT THEY DISOWN ME MORE WAYS THAN ONE. AND THE FACT THAT THEY DONT CARE ABOUT MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN. AND IN THE SAME SENSE I FEEL THAT I CAN UNDERSTAND THE RELATION OF THIS MATTER OF FEARING WHAT SOCIETY THINKS OR WHAT SAMOANS IN GENERAL THINK ANY MORE. I LEARN FIRST TO LOVE MYSELF, AND MOST OF ALL, LOVE EVERYTHING AROUND ME AS WELL AS THOSE WHO HATES ME FOR BEING ME. BEING ME IS BEING INDEPENDENT AND A STRONG SAMOAN WOMAN IN A SOCIETY THAT'S CHALLENGING. I FACE THRU HARD TIMES IN LIFE AND GUESS WHAT? I COULDN'T EVEN BRING MYSELF TO ASK FAMILY FOR ASSISTANCE BECAUSE I MARRIED A MEAULI MAN. WOW! SO HARD I FELT LIKE COMITTING SUICIDE THRU THE COURSE OF MY MARRIAGE BECAUSE I DISAPPOINTED MY FAMILY! BUT AS THINGS GOT BAD I FIRST KNEELED BEFORE GOD AND PRAYED TO TAKE ME AWAY FOR JUST ONE MOMENT AND GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CONTROL MY ANGER AND MOVE ON FROM EVERYTHING THAT WAS ACTUALLY TRYING TO CONTROL ME. AND LET ME BE ALL HE IS EXPECTING ME TO BE. AND NOT WHAT EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY WANTING ME TO BE. I WAS LIVING A HORROR TRYING TO LIVE UP TO MY FAMILIES EXPECTATION AND NOT MINES. TODAY I HAVE MATURED IN TO A GREAT MOTHER OF 3 BOYS AND 1 GIRL AND ANOTHER BOY AND THE WAY. AND THEY ARE ALL HALF MEAULI AND SAMOAN AND IM PROUD TO SAY THE MY BOYS ARE AGES 11,10,9 AND 5 YEAR OLD GIRL. MY 11 YEAR OLD IS AN HONOR ROLL
MY 10 YEAR OLD IS ON PRINCIPAL'S LIST ALL A'S AND MY NINE YEAR OLD HE JUST A CLOWN (ULU KA'E) NUCKLEHEARD .HE IS ACTUALLY AND HONOR ROLL STUDENT BUT HIS CONDUCT WONT ALLOW HIM. AND MY 5 YEAR OLD THIKS SHE JUST GOT IT GOIN ON WITH HER BEAUTIFUL SAMOAN SELF. AND SHE DOES GOT IT GOIN ON THANK YOU. AND THEY ARE MY PRIDE AND JOY AND THE REASON WHY IM STILL HERE ON EARTH ENJOYING LIFE AS IS EXPECTED AND TAKING CARE OF MY KIDS TO MY BEST ABILITY AND MAKING THEM HUMBLE TO SOCIETIES IGNORANCE AND THEY ARE VERY PROUD OF BEING OF A SAMOAN AND MEAULI. AND GUESS WHAT FOR MY FAMILY THEY WILL THEY WOULD WISH TO SEE WHAT BEAUTIFUL CREATION THEY ARE OF ME AND THEY CHOOSE NOT TO. I PROBABLY COULD WRITE A BOOK, BUT I'LL STOP HERE.




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